My First (and only) Day on Ritalin

Thank you all for your prayers today…it was a rough day of weird symptoms and asking myself over and over, “What was I thinking?”

Yes, I took one 10 mg tablet of Ritalin, prescribed by my doctor, this morning. That is the lowest dosage available. She said to give it a try for two weeks and see her in a month. Well, the remainder of the pills have been ceremonially dumped into the toilet and flushed!

For the shortened long story: A sibling and my father have recently started in on Ritalin as adults. They’ve been having good results. My husband and I have been joking for months that I’ve got ADD. I thought I’d give it a try for a little while to see if it would improve my clarity of thought.

Jeff was really against it because Ritalin is essentially Meth in a small dose. He works with drug addicts and knows what this stuff does to people. He has seen me all loopy on over-the-counter medicines…what could this possibly do?

[Disclaimer: Ritalin works for some people. I am not entirely against it…only for me!]

My hands started to feel puffy (they did not swell…but felt that way all day). I felt sleepy and alert at the same time, like I took a sleeping pill with a double shot of espresso. My face felt numb and my speech was difficult and slow. Yeah…this was the medication to help me be not so distracted.

Jeff administered his version of detox: chocolate ice cream and oreo cookies. 🙂

I can at least rule out ADD…which leads to my next tangent….

For a few weeks now, I’ve been investigating autism, more specifically, Asperger’s Syndrome. That was really difficult for me to write just then…because it feels like I’m baring my soul in admitting I might have a profound neurological difference. Though I’ve not been officially diagnosed, the patterns of my childhood and adulthood seem to be lining up within the confines of the autism spectrum. Jeff agrees with many of the articles we’ve read.

Where do I go from here? I’m not sure…but the more I learn, the better I understand how God made me and may want to use me in the world.

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6 Responses to “My First (and only) Day on Ritalin”


  1. 1 Amy July 23, 2007 at 10:08 pm

    Will be praying for you as you investigate Asperger’s. It is really little known and misunderstood.

    Blessings
    Amy

  2. 2 cbrunette July 24, 2007 at 6:45 am

    Thanks, Amy! I appreciate the support. It may be a while before I gain any official diagnosis since there seems be to no specialists within two hours drive of here. In the meantime, I’m just happy being me…

    ~Anna

  3. 3 Kim July 24, 2007 at 8:04 am

    Still praying for you. *hugs* 🙂

  4. 4 tabletophomestead July 25, 2007 at 8:28 am

    Anna,

    Truly, I can empathize. God wired some of us in an entirely different and wondrous way. I know it may be hard for you to see it that way, but time may help you with that. I went from being a child who, though functional, knew something was very different about me to a young adulthood self-diagnosis of ADD complete with a time on anti-depressants and Ritalin. The doctor added the Ritalin to jump-start the anti-depressants and after the first dose I knew exactly what my “problem” was. At that point I felt justified to say to myself and others, “See, I’m not right. That’s why I do things the way I do.” It was an illness, an excuse, and a liability to me. Now in yet another season of life I have peace. I take no medication. My lifestyle is my medication. I see my “alternate wiring” as a gift. A challenging gift, yes, much like Paul’s gifts, but a gift nonetheless.:) I will keep you in prayer.

    Judy

  5. 5 Mary July 26, 2007 at 9:23 am

    Anna, have you checked into enzyme therapy? Many many people have found this a natural and successful remedy for autism and ADD/ADHD. I am just discovering it, but if I were you, I’d explore http://www.enzymestuff.com –author Karen DeFelice’s site. Her sons were autistic, one severely so, and through enzyme therapy they’ve grown into completely normal adults.

    Your local health food store could tell you a lot more.

  6. 6 cbrunette July 26, 2007 at 4:21 pm

    Mary,

    Thank you for the link and comment but the more I am learning about the Autistic spectrum, the more I realize that it is a genetic difference that cannot be “cured.” Autistic people are just wired differently for reasons God only knows. I do not view this as an illness from which I may recover but different level of perception and living than others.

    I suggest reading the following article:

    http://www.thegraycenter.org/sectionsdetails.cfm?id=38

    Blessings,

    Anna


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