One of the heart issues I am wrestling with right now in terms of faith, modesty, and such subjects, is the overwhelming urge to prove my stance. You probably know the feeling, “This is what I am doing and I am right.” My subconscious approach to people has been defensive. The situations in class recently have given me awareness on it. Instead of being a light for Christ, I’ve been trying to make fire without matches every time.
I am reading Pilgrim’s Progress by John Bunyan in small bites. In the second portion, Christiana sets out on Pilgrimage with her four sons. [If you didn’t know there was a second portion, go find an old unabridged copy of the book!] Bunyan’s portrayal of simplicity of heart in the character of Mercy brought me to tears last night. She wants to join her neighbor in pilgrimage but is at a loss to know how. She weeps and is contrite. Christiana says to her, “Bowels befit a Pilgrim.”
That’s what I need: a security in my soul about who I am and a simplicity in presenting it to the world. When Christ said “You are the light of the world” or “You are the salt of the earth,” He renamed our identity. Pray for me as I pray for you to become those women who turn their faces from the city of Destruction towards the Wicket Gate.